The main reason I don’t feel “normal” is not just because I have this fetish, but because I find ordinary porn kind of repulsive. Like, I just went on pornhub RN, and nothing there really catches my eye at all. The girls don’t even seem hot for some reason, like, I wouldn’t even find them all that intriguing in fetish porn. A lot of vaginas on the front page, and idk, I don’t really like having a random pussy shoved in my face, especially if there are liquids in or around.
A lot of really unrealistically (I’m assuming) erect penises too, which just kinda makes me feel inadequate, like “if this guy can get so hard for this girl why can’t I”, and then I’m not horny at all. I know that’s a dumb thought, and these guys are pretty much always on viagra or something else, just can’t help thinking that. Plus, porn penises don’t do much for me for some reason, even tho I definitely like erect penises at times…
A lot of ass too, like a lot of ass. And tits. And sure they’re big or round or whatever, but just… nothing. All of these videos look boring or downright unappealing.
Also a lot of blowjob videos, and that just does absolutely nothing for me, visually or in real life. This take makes me feel really strange, cuz it sounds like everyone I’ve ever met thinks blowjobs are just the best thing ever but they’re really just “meh” for me. I never feel anything “good” happening down there, and because of that it just becomes a game of “how long can I stay fluffed for her to feel like she’s doing something.”
It’s really strange because I mean, all of these things definitely turn me on in the right context, but… nothing on the front page of pornhub that’s for sure, and almost definitely nothing in the videos. It all just seems kinda grotesque. Do normal people open up the front page and get aroused?
EDIT: One thing I noticed just now is that “candid” stuff seems to be more exciting to me. Maybe it’s the “hollywood” style porn that turns me off? All those cinematic porn gimmicks like super gorgeous people, perfect lighting and makeup, “perfect” bodies, it just seems like they’re not actually horny at all, and I can’t get behind that lol. Even then, it’s really hit or miss with “amateur” stuff, but still thought I’d include the detail.